Usually I awake in the morning with all these thoughts I want to share with you, yet this morning I was at a loss for words. On the way to take Joshua to 'school' I heard Mercy Me's song "Word of God Speak", "Finding myself at a loss for words, and the funny thing is its okay. The last thing I need is to be heard; but hear what you would say. Word of God speak; would you pour down like rain; washing my eyes to see your majesty. To be still and know that you're in this place; please let me stay and rest in your holiness."
While listening to this song I was reminded of all the loneliness I've felt over the course of the past fifteen months that Steve has been in Afghanistan. I know that though Steve is not with me physically he carries me in his heart as I carry him in mine. I realized that though I may be lonely, I am certainly not alone. I'm fortunate to have the support of a wonderful group of women known as "The DCC Sisterhood” and John 16:32 tells me "Yet I am not alone, because the Father is with me".
I listened to the lyrics of this song, "To be still and know that you're in this place; please let me stay and rest in your holiness". I close my eyes and imagine my Heavenly Father looking down on me with a comforting and loving smile, taking me in His arms and holding me close to Him in the warmth, comfort, peace and safety of His loving arms. How wonderful it is to take time to in vision my Heavenly Father holding me in His arms giving me rest, a peaceful rest unlike any other. Suddenly the loneliness doesn't seem so unbearable.
Dealing with your husband working and living in the middle of a war zone can certainly take its toll on you. Being left behind to take care of the home, the children and the day to day functions can be exhausting. If your husband isn't in the middle of a war zone there are so many other situations in our lives that can be very stressful. Sometimes you feel that no one in the world understands what you're going through. Maybe no one in the world understands, but I promise you our Heavenly Father understands and He doesn't want to see us hurt any more than we want to see our own children hurt.
Spend some time with our Heavenly Father today. Close your eyes and envision Him holding and comforting you. Feel His love, His peace and His understanding today. Find some rest in His holiness and know that He loves you and wants good things for you and know "I am not alone". God bless you!
